I Want To...

How can I not feeling down when my heart hurts?

How can I keep smiling when tears are falling down?

How can I stay still when someone dear to me did this?

How can I just let it go when it hurts my ego?

I don’t want to feel down.

I want to keep smiling.

I want to stay still.

I want to let it go.

I’ve never ask for this kind of humiliation.

And I don’t deserve to receive it.

What sin did I do to you,

so you do this to me?

If you don’t like me,

why don’t you just tell me?

So I can go away from your life

and keep a distance from everyone you love?

Just so you know,

it hurts.

Really.

Deeply.

I want to ignore it, but I can’t.

I just can’t.

I don’t know why.

Maybe because I love and trust you like my own family?

I don’t want to feel down anymore.

I want to keep smiling again.

I want to stay still.

I want to let it go.

But, how?

Tell me.

Please.

I beg you.

by: ckk ^_^
February 04, 2015
temporary office ~ Surabaya
around 14.14