scraps of love and life

I've ever felt some love before: A bad love, An unfair love, A hurtful love, A happy love. But, I've never felt such a tender love before. Never! Till you come to my life and love me tenderly. Your love is tender. Your gaze is tender. Your word is tender. Your deed is tender. Your touch is tender. Even your anger is tender. I love the way you love me. The way you gaze on me. The way you speak to me. The way you do something to and for me. The way you touch me. Even I love the way you angry to me. I've never felt a love like this And I'm glad that I can feel a love like this, A tender love. But... Why is it you who love me tenderly? Why is it you who make me feel a love like this? Why?? You are too far, Unreachable, Impossible to be mine. We live in different world. Different time. You are the morning And I am the night, Or you are the night And I am the morning; They are just the same: That we can't meet each other. If we can't meet each other, How can we unite?...

Mengapa manusia diciptakan dengan hati yang rapuh, Yang mudah terluka, Bahkan oleh keputusannya sendiri? Tapi, Jika manusia diciptakan tanpa hati, Dunia tidak akan menjadi indah. Tidak ada sesuatu yang dapat melembutkan kekerasan manusia. Tapi... Mengapa hati itu harus rapuh dan mudah terluka? Tak bisakah manusia diciptakan dengan hati yang kuat, Yang tidak mudah terluka? "Cukuplah kasih karunia-Ku bagimu, sebab justru dalam kelemahanlah kuasa-Ku menjadi sempurna." Mungkin hati manusia memang harus rapuh dan mudah terluka. Tidak! Bukan mungkin! Memang harus! Agar ada cukup ruang bagi Bapa untuk mengalirkan kasih-Nya, Menyatakan cinta-Nya bagi setiap manusia. Jika manusia diciptakan dengan hati yang kuat dan tidak mudah terluka, Manusia tidak akan memerlukan kasih Bapa untuk menyembuhkan luka-luka hatinya. Bahkan, Mungkin manusia tidak akan pernah terluka jika hatinya kuat. Hati manusia memang harus rapuh, Agar manusia tidak menjadi keras, Agar manusia sadar bahwa dirinya ti...

I'll never apologize, 'cause loving you is not a mistake... A storm not only devastated, but it also grow the new root... Love hurts, love will heal... It's certain that true love can heal a broken heart, 'cause true love is the spirit of human life... I don't cry, not because I don't sad... I just want to see clearly when you leave, in order to remember you... If you decided to leave me and choose her, I'm okay... I won't sad, I won't mad, I won't cry... I won't ask you to stay beside me too... I just want you to be honest with your little heart... If all of your decision came from your honesty with your little heart, I'm okay... I'll be okay... 'Cause you'll be happy with your decision: to be with her... But, if all of your decision didn't came from your honesty with your little heart, I'm not okay... I won't be okay... 'Cause you won't be happy with your decision: to be with her... It's certain that ...

Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading From all the things that we are But are not saying Can we see beyond the stars And make it to the dawn? Change the colors of the sky And open up to The ways you made me feel alive The ways I loved you For all the things that never died To make it through the night Love will find you What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late What about now? The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day This broken heart can still survive With a touch of your grace Shadows fade into the light I am by your side Where love will find you What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love, it never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late What about now? Now that we're here ...

*edited from closing cogitation for convent “GKI Membaca Diri” ~ May 16 – 17, 2011 1 Korintus 7:10-16 Banyak pertentangan yang terjadi ketika kita berbicara tentang pernikahan ekumenis, baik yang berbeda aliran gerejanya, terutama yang berbeda agamanya. Ada yang mendukung, ada pula yang menolak. Tetapi, pada akhirnya semua kembali pada diri kita masing-masing, pada diri saudara, anak, atau teman kita yang hendak menikah, kembali pada hati kita masing-masing. Paulus mengatakan, “Kalau ada seorang saudara beristerikan atau bersuamikan seorang yang tidak beriman dan pasangannya itu mau hidup bersama-sama dengan dia, janganlah saudara itu menceraikan pasangannya yang tidak seiman itu.” (1 Korintus 7:12-13) Dalam hal ini, Paulus sudah menyentuh ranah hati, sesuatu yang paling mendalam dalam diri setiap manusia, sesuatu yang paling jujur, paling kuat berbicara, sekaligus yang paling rapuh dalam diri setiap manusia. Menikah atau tidak menikah merupakan pilihan hati masing-masing pribadi. Meni...